Wednesday 19 November 2014

Guilt is everywhere.


It was quiet in the office today. So I procrastinated from staring at Buzzfeed, for a while, and did this. I'm bored of everything making me feel guilty. It's exhausting.


Shower. Drought. Pick up a free paper. You’re killing paid publishing. You’re killing trees. Seat on the tube. Is that woman old enough to justify the seat? Is first come first serve the basis for our evolution? Stand on the escalator. You should be more healthy. Skip breakfast. It’s the most important meal of the day. There are people starving in the world. Coffee. Is it fairtrade? Do you care? Power me through. Headphones on. Antisocial. Procrastinate. Spend five quid on a gluten free, lactose free, sugar free lunch. That used to be an hour’s wage. You’ve become everything you didn’t want to be. Headphones on. Procrastinate more. Laugh with colleagues. Stop being annoying. You’re not being paid to enjoy yourself. They might see. Headphones on. Stare at your screen. Afternoon coffee. It’s definitely not fairtrade. Shouldn’t you be boycotting Nestle? Mutter a sentence to someone. Should you have talked for longer? You should make more effort with people. Go home. Ignore a homeless man. Makes you feel too good about your own life. Feel sad about how much better he made you feel. Worry where he’ll sleep tonight. It’s not your problem, you donate to Shelter. Seat on tube. Same thought process. Leave your free paper on the seat. Worry that it might be littering. It definitely is.  Make yourself dinner. Make too much. Throw away a half portion. Worry about wasting food. People are starving. Wonder if you should recycle. Don’t. There’s not enough space in your little flat for more bins. Don’t empty the bin. Go to the loo. Empty the bin. Don’t take out the bag. Watch telly until you fall asleep. Wake up at 3am with all the lights, and your clothes on. Must stop burning so much energy. So much energy.

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